If I were in your shoes

If I were in your shoes...Things would have been different.

I never would have trusted a family based on a scrapbook. I would not have gotten in a car with them alone after only knowing them for ten days. There is no way I could have been brave while being hooked up to IVs without any friends or family with me, not knowing what to expect.

I would have made the easy choices. I wouldn't have been brave or strong or independent. I would have given up, stopped trying. I am too selfish.

I could not have placed my perfect new daughter in the arms of strangers. I could never know  what the right decision was. I will never comprehend the level of trust in your heart.

I would have fallen apart. I would have lost hope. I would have made all the wrong choices... Numbed the memory and never looked back.

I am so blessed that you are not me. And, because of your selflessness, our daughter will always know how amazing you are. I pray that you always stay strong,  beautiful, and loving.